Some of my poetry...
Proven.
Words can’t fill in the spaces of what I’m thinking,
It’s hard to imagine I’d come this far from what happened,
Actions speak louder than words,
And so far you’ve been proven,
But pictures tell stories of the unwritten,
Untold stories leave questions,
Questions come to mind when speaking,
But from this distance you can’t ask those questions,
You just want him there,
Being apart leaves an emptiness that doesn’t feel the same except for when he’s around,
But what to believe when everything is unspoken, unseen, and unheard?
How to feel when your heart has grown so cold?
I know what he wants,
But what he doesn’t want scares me,
Makes me question the sanity to stay with him,
How do you love someone who doesn’t know?
Doesn’t know if they feel the same?
Doesn’t know how to treat a woman without having her put her life on hold?
Why do you do these things and why did I let you take that control?
That Night
Felt his eyes on my face like the sun soaking into my skin,
Felt his breath in my ear as he drew me in,
Could have sworn it lasted for days but what happened?
Like a flash in the sky,
It was over before it began,
Can’t tell you how, damn, I was feelin’ him,
As his lips brushed my ear,
I could feel it was somethin’ more,
If only I could promise him further in store…
Sin.
Why does it feel so good to be so wrong,
Your lips taste like sin,
Your skin feels like fire,
Your body pressed against mine,
Reminds me of the sweetest desire,
I want your body all over mine,
Forever,
Never let me go,
Hold me,
At least til the nights over,
Without you its so cold,
Your body makes me alive,
Without you I cant breathe,
I need that venom,
Keeps me alive.
Sleep
I’ve become immune to the word sleep now and awake to the fact that without you I can't sleep,
I feel stuck in time waiting for you and trying to let you escape from my mind,
It’s almost paralyzing but without you it'd be horrifying,
You relieve my worst fear of being alone but reinstate it every moment you’re gone.
I don’t feel whole without you because every breath becomes more mortifying, without you here I can't breath but with you I feel the same,
It's so hard whether you’re near or far from me,
But you know that I'll always be here for you baby.
Each Day.
Live and love to make an impression that will never die,
Cause once you’re body’s left behind all you have left are memories that tell of the time,
Don’t take for granted any day that passes by,
Say what you needed to say,
Care about those important to you,
Show them how you feel,
And most important, just be real.
Make your life what it needs to be.
Again
Beggining again,
Wondering how it's gonna end,
Breathe a new day,
Feel the bright light of a new dawn,
With every breath I become stronger,
The days become brighter,
The nights even calmer,
The silence crystal clear,
My eyes open with no hesitation,
My chest feels no burden,
There's no hazy image in sight,
I've made peace,
And there's no faltering my dream tonight,
For you know what I want,
Just trust in me,
Make it what's right.
Unwritten
Made a wish,
And there you were,
Opened my heart like a book,
Every day is a turn of the page,
Getting deeper into the words,
Questions come from words written,
But answers come as you tell me how you feel,
Messages learned from what was said,
Every message we get deeper,
I don’t want this to end,
So the end will be forever unwritten,
For as long as I’m with you,
Our life will be similar to a mystery,
Still being written,
But together forever.
Confusion
The way you looked at me that day,
So sorry for everything that we had been through,
The way that you held me,
There was nothing left I could say,
Put your arms around me and never did let me go,
I couldn’t breathe until you had told me to stay,
Words can’t describe how badly I needed that said,
The way that you acted,
You treasured me immeasurably,
Like you couldn’t perceive anything functioning without me,
Just how I feel every day,
Confusion, that’s all I can say,
I love you,
What more is there to say,
Just please don’t leave me.
Your Persuasion
Like the day leaves the sky blue so is my heart,
Like the dark comes mystery through the night,
Like the dreams that enter my every thought,
Like the cold winter wind whips harder into my face,
Your words leave me battered seeking for help,
Like the sun,
Your eyes brighten my day,
But like the seasons change,
So do your feelings, ringing confusion around my ears,
And as it rains here come my tears,
But then I see that smile,
Where have you been cause I haven’t seen you in awhile?
You always come and go with the swaying of the sea,
This time would you just stay with me awhile?
Him.
I begin thinking,
How do I feel?
What am I doing here?
How did it end up like this?
Some point between wasting time and losing myself things become clearer,
Where has He disappeared in my life?
Why can’t I find Him?
I’m losing everything out of strife,
Why have my eyes been smoothed over with a dark light?
Why have I forgotten what it feels like to be free and without a doubt?
I swore that things that came about would never become my worst fears,
But with every breath there comes a tear now,
Where has He been in my life?
Crumble.
Love is something indescribable,
Crumble, crumble, fall, fall,
Sometimes it’s unstoppable,
No way to hold it anymore,
Or even let it go,
But yet sometimes you feel so far away,
Hold your tears back so you don’t have to feel all those eyes on your open soul,
Think with your head not your heart,
In order to keep yourself from an unattainable goal,
Don’t hold on to something your not sure of,
But how can you let go of something that is engraved in your heart,
Just like the day we met,
It will never be forgotten,
There was nothing to stop our lives from colliding,
And sometimes it feels like crumble, crumble, fall, fall,
We’re tearing down the walls,
But then I hear the sweet sound of bang, boom, bang, boom,
We’ve rebuilt our last fall.
Intoxicating.
Used to see you all the time,
